[I wanted to post this on April 21, 2011…but lets face it–life gets busy sometimes]
Six-months ago I was a typical college student who hated their major and just wanted to graduate and make money. I hated my classes (and even though my mother told me that ‘hate’ is a strong word…I would have to say that ‘hate’ is an understatement when referring to how much I hated my business classes). I really only lived for Thursday nights (and I don’t mean drinking…I go to Chi Alpha and worship Jesus and hang out with awesome people–if you want proof, watch this!) I wasn’t aware how much life could change in one day…until, in just one day my life was turned upside down.
Do not boast about tomorrow,
for you do not know what a day may bring.
Losing my youngest sister has been, without a doubt, the hardest thing I have ever experienced (and still have to understand a work through every day). It was out of the blue and very unexplained–why did God take her?!? Well, I will never know the answer to that…to a point. Obviously, God has a plan for everyone and His plan for her was shorter than the one He has for me…but I’ve learned that the length of life doesn’t matter. I recently listened to an amazing pastor (Dave!) who spoke about our life compared to eternity…he said, even the shortest life can yield a life of eternity if lived for God. If you knew Kailey, you would know what I mean when I say that that little girl, all <50 pounds of her LOVED God–she enjoyed Sunday School and singing in church, staying after school on Wednesdays for Good News Club, and memorizing Bible verses. I don’t think I really appreciated her faith as much as I should have…to this day, I wish that I had just one ounce of the faith that she had.
Even with all of that ‘understood,’ I would never have made it through that season of my life (including now) without my amazing support group of friends.
As iron sharpens iron,
so one person sharpens another.
With every hug and card, my friends showed me that life will go on and . . . even though it will be different, that they will be by my side and be there for me. They helped me turn that time of trial into a time of growth because let me tell you–there were times when I wanted to walk away from God because if He was God…why didn’t he save her? I don’t know how I would have made it through without their love and encouragement.
And yet, even knowing that Kailey was happy in eternity and having amazing friends to support and love me, I was so confused. If life is so short…WHY I am unhappy?!? WHY am I taking these classes.
As water reflects the face,
so one’s life reflects the heart.